Two weeks ago I was on top of the world.

In London I was keynoting the FUSE Conference with 400 corporate executives. I was catching up with old friends and making new ones. I was absolutely pumped because we finally finished development on our next gen software platform after hammering out code every day for 9 months.

With a single Facebook message everything changed. The past two weeks have been the most painful and heartbreaking of my entire life. Every day I’ve felt anger, sadness, and grief. Every day I’ve cried. Every day I’ve prayed I would snap out of it and realize it was all in my imagination.

My best friend Devin Schenck has passed away.

I loved Devin with all my heart. He was the greatest person I’ve ever known. He was the closest thing I’ve ever had to a brother.

Devin inspired me. He taught me so many things. We trained together. We lived together. We caused trouble together. We were there for each other and we saw no limit to our potential.

I’m still in disbelief. I can’t believe this happened. That this happened to Devin.

Where I go from here and what happens now, I don’t know. But my life will never be the same without him.